I could use some prayers today. I spent most of yesterday dreading the fact that today is Monday, which means I should be going to work. I wrestled with my emotions all night, and had some discussions with my husband. I went to bed with nothing being resolved.
I woke up this morning fully intending to go to work. I got up, showered, ate breakfast. Then I noticed that my stomach is a little upset. Not fun to go to work with an upset stomach, right? So of course then it looks like I'm trying to find an excuse not to go to work. Not great.
Then I get to thinking. I think "I wish I could have a day to just sit and think and pray and to listen for God's voice, to do what I need to do to take care of me". So I tell my husband how I'm feeling, yet he encourages me to go to work and to "plan ahead" for that type of day. Then I felt like crap for my feelings. I talked to him about it a bit more, and decided that I would in fact stay home and try to figure out a way to make it through the situation that is work.
So today, please be praying for me, if you are the praying type. I am going to spend a lot of time in prayer, time reading my Bible, and time just listening for God. I hope to come out on the other side feeling a sense of renewal and a sense of hope. Maybe I'll have some answers at the end of the day. Or maybe an inkling of what I'm supposed to do. Or maybe I'll hear nothing at all today. But I am taking today as my time to be with God.
3.23.2009
3.11.2009
Mini Update
Not much has happened since the last time I posted. I did get to buy some books and magazines on Sunday, which is always awesome. I really shouldn't be allowed to go into a bookstore by myself, though. Too many temptations.
I have decided for sure to apply to massage therapy school. I have filled out my application, and I am going for a tour tomorrow, and will drop it off then. I also need to fax my transcript request to UNT. And a whole slew of other things (mostly financial aid stuff) needs to be done soon, too.
I also started a new knitting project this week, because my old one had too many mistakes and I had to frog it. I'm working on a knit bag now, and I think it will turn out pretty well! We shall see.
We leave for vacation on Friday morning, and I can't wait. I really need to get away from work for a while, and Tyler has promised to get me relaxed and not thinking about anything too important while we are gone. I hope it works!
That's all for now. I have the evening to myself, and I plan on reading (The Friday Night Knitting Club), possibly knitting, and probably going to Starbucks. :-)
I have decided for sure to apply to massage therapy school. I have filled out my application, and I am going for a tour tomorrow, and will drop it off then. I also need to fax my transcript request to UNT. And a whole slew of other things (mostly financial aid stuff) needs to be done soon, too.
I also started a new knitting project this week, because my old one had too many mistakes and I had to frog it. I'm working on a knit bag now, and I think it will turn out pretty well! We shall see.
We leave for vacation on Friday morning, and I can't wait. I really need to get away from work for a while, and Tyler has promised to get me relaxed and not thinking about anything too important while we are gone. I hope it works!
That's all for now. I have the evening to myself, and I plan on reading (The Friday Night Knitting Club), possibly knitting, and probably going to Starbucks. :-)
3.08.2009
More Changes
Well ladies (and gentlemen? I have no idea.), I may have decided upon something that will change my life. I am looking into going back to school to be a massage therapist. I know it seems like this is coming out of the blue (trust me, I know!), and I still have some praying and seeking to do, but it is looking like a real possibility.
I am drawn to MT for many reasons - the ability to help people, the chance to work for myself (and the flexibility that will bring to scheduling), learning more about the human body/being in a health & wellness related field. I know that going back to school may be tough, and that I still won't be 100% happy with my job all of the time, but I think it would be a great improvement over the kinds of jobs I've had and the job I have now, and I really believe I would enjoy it a lot.
I am looking at 1 school in particular right now, based on the advice of the massage therapist I went to see this week. This school is part of a chiropractic college, and because of that has access to and observation time in a gross anatomy lab, which is very rare for massage therapy schools. It also provides more clinical and classroom hours than required by the state, which should = really knowing and understanding what I'm doing by the time I graduate. It is an 8 month program, and I would most likely start in May. That is only 2 months away, people!
If I do this, we will most likely stop trying actively for our first child, at least until I have been in the program for a few months, so that I will be able to finish before potentially giving birth. We will probably also put off moving until after I graduate, in order to help build our savings a little more and to avoid putting extra stress on me while I'm in school. Ideally we will be able to create a massage studio in our future home so that I can work from home and avoid paying to work in someone else's studio, but it will depend on several variables, of course.
That is where I'm at right now. Tyler and I are going to continue praying about this, but unless we get the feeling that this is definitely not something I should be doing, it is the most probably course for my future at this point. :-)
I am drawn to MT for many reasons - the ability to help people, the chance to work for myself (and the flexibility that will bring to scheduling), learning more about the human body/being in a health & wellness related field. I know that going back to school may be tough, and that I still won't be 100% happy with my job all of the time, but I think it would be a great improvement over the kinds of jobs I've had and the job I have now, and I really believe I would enjoy it a lot.
I am looking at 1 school in particular right now, based on the advice of the massage therapist I went to see this week. This school is part of a chiropractic college, and because of that has access to and observation time in a gross anatomy lab, which is very rare for massage therapy schools. It also provides more clinical and classroom hours than required by the state, which should = really knowing and understanding what I'm doing by the time I graduate. It is an 8 month program, and I would most likely start in May. That is only 2 months away, people!
If I do this, we will most likely stop trying actively for our first child, at least until I have been in the program for a few months, so that I will be able to finish before potentially giving birth. We will probably also put off moving until after I graduate, in order to help build our savings a little more and to avoid putting extra stress on me while I'm in school. Ideally we will be able to create a massage studio in our future home so that I can work from home and avoid paying to work in someone else's studio, but it will depend on several variables, of course.
That is where I'm at right now. Tyler and I are going to continue praying about this, but unless we get the feeling that this is definitely not something I should be doing, it is the most probably course for my future at this point. :-)
3.05.2009
Change is a-comin'
Hey everyone! I've decided I'd really like to increase the comments and readership I get here on the ol' blog, so I've come up with a list of possible ideas. Let me know what you think, and what you'd like to see!
Post of the Day: I would like to share my favorite post from my Google Reader subscriptions each day, with permission of the blog's author, of course. I would also include a link to their blog.
Weekly Wrap-up: Highlights from our day-to-day life each week
Posts of scriptures or songs that I'm finding particularly uplifting, situation-specific, etc.
Reader Q & As
Reader special requests (for topic-specific posts, recipes, etc.)
Recipes
Book reviews
Product Raves/Service Reviews
Eco-Friendly tips
5K training progress
Guest blog posts
Any feedback or further suggestions are welcome!
Post of the Day: I would like to share my favorite post from my Google Reader subscriptions each day, with permission of the blog's author, of course. I would also include a link to their blog.
Weekly Wrap-up: Highlights from our day-to-day life each week
Posts of scriptures or songs that I'm finding particularly uplifting, situation-specific, etc.
Reader Q & As
Reader special requests (for topic-specific posts, recipes, etc.)
Recipes
Book reviews
Product Raves/Service Reviews
Eco-Friendly tips
5K training progress
Guest blog posts
Any feedback or further suggestions are welcome!
3.03.2009
It's been awhile, once again! I am really bad about updating this thing, sorry everyone!
I started a new job 2.5 weeks ago, and it is keeping me really busy. I don't really have the time to do all the stuff around the house that I am used to, and that is really bumming me out. I realize now how lucky I was to be able to stay home. I keep trying to tell myself that this job is only for 5 months, and then I'll be free again, but 5 months is a LONG time when your job is fairly repetitive and your productivity at that job is completely reliant on other people answering their phone or email and/or returning your voicemails. It's pretty hard to hire someone when no one will call you back. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that all the money I make will be going toward a downpayment for our first house, which we will hopefully be purchasing this summer.
Other than work, not a whole lot has been going on lately. Tyler and I ran our first 5K this past Saturday, which was really cool. I even finished under my goal of 45 minutes (by about 1 minute). I was ecstatic! After I crossed the finish I searched for Tyler for at least half an hour, both around the finish line and back where we checked in. I was on the verge of having a meltdown and crying in the midst of 17,000 people when I finally spotted him passing through a crowd. I was so relieved to find him. Next race, we will definitely designate a meeting place for post-race. We're hoping to run another race before this summer, and to make this a pretty regular thing. I never thought I'd become a runner, but here I am! :-)
We're still trying for kid #1, this is our 6th month. Everything seems to be in working order for me so far, so we'll just keep on keepin' on until something happens. Prayers for this are always appreciated. Since I am part of an online community of other women in the same boat as me, I try to pray every day for women who are trying to get pregnant, who are pregnant, etc. because I know how stressful this journey can be. I have faith that God will carry us through this.
Lastly, I am feeling so blessed in my life right now. Tyler and I are both lucky to have jobs that support our lifestyle and allow us to save. We are both healthy. We are blessed with wonderful relationships, with each other, our families, and our friends. God has provided us with a church home that richly blesses our lives as well as the lives of thousands of people. We couldn't really ask for anything more in life.
I started a new job 2.5 weeks ago, and it is keeping me really busy. I don't really have the time to do all the stuff around the house that I am used to, and that is really bumming me out. I realize now how lucky I was to be able to stay home. I keep trying to tell myself that this job is only for 5 months, and then I'll be free again, but 5 months is a LONG time when your job is fairly repetitive and your productivity at that job is completely reliant on other people answering their phone or email and/or returning your voicemails. It's pretty hard to hire someone when no one will call you back. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that all the money I make will be going toward a downpayment for our first house, which we will hopefully be purchasing this summer.
Other than work, not a whole lot has been going on lately. Tyler and I ran our first 5K this past Saturday, which was really cool. I even finished under my goal of 45 minutes (by about 1 minute). I was ecstatic! After I crossed the finish I searched for Tyler for at least half an hour, both around the finish line and back where we checked in. I was on the verge of having a meltdown and crying in the midst of 17,000 people when I finally spotted him passing through a crowd. I was so relieved to find him. Next race, we will definitely designate a meeting place for post-race. We're hoping to run another race before this summer, and to make this a pretty regular thing. I never thought I'd become a runner, but here I am! :-)
We're still trying for kid #1, this is our 6th month. Everything seems to be in working order for me so far, so we'll just keep on keepin' on until something happens. Prayers for this are always appreciated. Since I am part of an online community of other women in the same boat as me, I try to pray every day for women who are trying to get pregnant, who are pregnant, etc. because I know how stressful this journey can be. I have faith that God will carry us through this.
Lastly, I am feeling so blessed in my life right now. Tyler and I are both lucky to have jobs that support our lifestyle and allow us to save. We are both healthy. We are blessed with wonderful relationships, with each other, our families, and our friends. God has provided us with a church home that richly blesses our lives as well as the lives of thousands of people. We couldn't really ask for anything more in life.
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